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Remembering Grace

Remembering Grace Five years ago today, I had reached 25 weeks of pregnancy with our second child – a baby sister for Benjamin, then 19 months old. The pregnancy was progressing well so, when I hadn’t felt much movement for 24 hours, I wasn’t panicked as I phoned the doctor to a “quick” check that all was well, just before Christmas. It wasn’t. The doctor found no heartbeat, and, an hour later, at the hospital, a scan confirmed that our baby had died. Three days later, in the early hours of the 27 th December, Grace Tennant was stillborn, weighing little over 1lb. As she was born post-24 weeks, she has a birth certificate, a ‘real’ place in history – a small but important thing to us, when we had to register her birth at the town hall a few days later. To sum up the ensuing days, weeks and months that followed that week is impossible – sadness, anger, despair, questions, mixed with gratitude for the deep love and support of family and friends, which held us together and got ...
Wrote this one a while ago...not got round to adding any to my blog since the summer...probably a good one to read, as the holidays end and the stresses and strains of life resurface...if you like it, let me know! The Father’s Love I want to cry today. I want the pain and exhaustion of life to go away. I want to hide under the bed and never come out. I want to lie on the floor and throw a tremendous tantrum, let all the anger, hurt and disappointment out, in heaving, shuddering sobs. And God, compassionate Father, gently says, “I will comfort you, And turn your mourning into dancing.” I want to be noticed today. I want the people who ask how I am, whilst dashing through the nearest doorway, to stop, and actually, really care. I want someone to acknowledge my efforts, praise me for my progress, love me for who I am, understand what is going on in this mixed-up mind. And God, attentive Father, reminds, “I see your comings and goings. I delight over you with sing...